moving on
ro told me in an email months ago to “be still” and listen to my heart. after that I began journaling on-line privately that know one has access too.. only b/c of my MS .. my handwriting is horrible, I also have begun an outline of lisa and my life – our life and the tragedy of how it all changed in one moment. Remember we don’t remember days – we only remember moments. I believe that to my core.
RO on her blog www.rosie.com is also moving on with less blogs. i believe it’s a cycle when it comes to being vulnerable to all. I will always do movies b/c to me they mean SO much more than I can ever type and if you think I pick the music by happenstance you are wrong.. there is meaning in all the songs I pick. I’m not saying i’m leaving my blog too, but if you wondered why I don’t upkeep both, this is why – introspection is what I strive for right now. personal writings that who knows someday maybe be a book for you all to read my vulnerabilities but more importantly the LOVE that lisa and I shared for each other for nearly 18 years. Peace to all and I leave you with Rosie’s blog post today
be still
12.08.08 at 1:00 am in family
she moves me so
her grace and dignity
her tiny tears
its the only reality show
that feels close 2 reality
i wish i knew her
in real life
the academy screeners are arriving
“it’s the most wonderful time of the year”
slumdog millionaire – just amazing
what doesnt kill you – brilliant
the MARAVEL arts center
opens this week
years in the making
dreams do comes true
patience
we teach the kids
dedication
inspiration
the front page will take u 2 RBK first
4 a while
as focus is important
1 must prioritize
blake is now nine
toothless vivi six
its hard 2 believe
yet here we all r
emerge gently
into the truths of ur own life
go out and live it for real
not on line
know what is 4 u only
not the world
participate in – not present to
thats the goal
b4 this blog i kept a journal
this morning i bought a new one
there is stuff waiting to be scribbled
on clean white paper
thoughts feelings
wishes dreams
triumphs and failures
private
4 me alone
the lesson i am learning
see what comes
when u look inside u
4 u – by u
without an audience
child be still
breathe
its ok
only love
thats deep. how does one even begin to “be still” and listen there heart. i know i would be incapable of it. but, if i could, i would do it all the time. isnt ro just..wow.. you know. like those are the only words you can say sum it up. just wow.