it’s really today
Valentine’s Day
a contrite holiday we really didn’t celebrate
though three years ago we were
packing for Miami and the boat of bliss
but really this sunday is the day
exactly now – 5pm in Miami
when I was on the phone with Jan B.
saying help me – they say I’m in an
“anti-gay city and state”
they had our legal papers and it didn’t matter
we waited, the kids and I in our matching outfits
in that tiny ugly old dirty waiting room
knowing in my soul that, today, 3yrs ago today
the day before Presidents’ day
would change my life more than any other
more than a birth or adoption or another
death
Today, 3yrs later – it’s Valentine’s day
the kids are blissfully unaware
no idea if they count days, months, anniversary’s like I do
I have to, it’s the only way to get
through – for me
so tomorrow on Presidents’ day at 10:45am – I will
be heading to UPS – the place of our beginning-
for writing class, at the moment
when my love lost her life, officially
thought the dates change by the year
and it’s ‘really’ the 19th but for me
it will always be Presidents’ day
Bought the kids Valentines goodies to distract myself
from the real truth of the day
peace
Jan, A beautiful entry, the song is perfect. Brought tears to my eyes and warmth to Lisa’s heart, I am sure Lisas’s heart is filled with pride. I am trying to take as good care of Lisa’s heart as I possibly can.
Jerry thank you – your compassion abounds, thank you
love
jan